people tend to say why u made it that ur life is horrible .
its hard for me to say because its not someting i can jus say it out loud .
people tend to say things which hurt me but ill try to not hold grudges but it cant be helped .
i noe i made a mistake but i did apologize but u insist im annoying im jus speechless .
ill change myself if people think of me that way i guess im jus nothing but a tool .
see me smiling with this fake smile its tiring .
i tried to forget but i just cant . ill always take the first step but nvr did people noe .
today when im out my heart is aching it feels like something has just drop out from it . anger contained in it tried to escape . but i hate these feelings why should i end good things into a bad one ? why should people start cold war just like that ? as much as i do not want to make a mess out of nothing but it cant be help if they think they are always right . everyone has pride and ego but never did they try to lower it like i do . u wont feel it becoz ur not me all u care is ur ego . but ill forgive that becoz ur young and nvr did go thru like wat i've gone thru all this years . the feeling of sadness and sorrow in me which i nvr did potrayed .
as much as i typed as much as people try to read and understand they will never noe how much i feel . theres no point . i promised ansel ill try to change but im unsure if i can do it . i tried and got a slap on my face just now . its hurtful i feel like giving up the journey of life . why should i travel if i keep getting bang into the wall ? each time i tried to stand up and move on it will just repeat itself . nobody will actually understand this .
people say only u can change ur life . to me i can only change it if it begins with the people around me . ill guess ill have to revert to my old self i nvr think ill ever have to do tis again but i guess i have to start hiding back in this turtle shell of mine .
[Style No' Nizzle] Normie...
rained at 11:37 pm
