got noone or no where to turn too all i can is type my feelings out. kinda sad huh get use to it nobody love to listen to another person misery right? well yeh fuck nobody can understand me the day someone understand me is the day i die i guess. even if i die nobody would care i suppose.
1st off ! Stupid feelings is killing me .
it feel so awkward being ard you the lust is killing me i wish i just dropped dead i dowan any feeling of love im trying to run my mind with anger but everytime the feeling of good memories came rushing back all i can do is sleep and dream about the sweetest thing but its all jus but a dream. i am trying to keep everything to myself all i can do is that.
2nd is grandma and family !
ye hi tot after i stay in this wretched place i would have a peace of mind no ! everyday i get irritated disturbed and worst she keep saying as if im an outsider . im her grandson and she say as if im someone who got pick up from the street but hell all i can do is retaliate and stfu due to being respectful . my mum i love her and miss her but she hardly call me . and my dad his trying his best to make up for his wrong doing i forgived him i suppose . but still im feeling discontented . im sorry junkai if that day i played badly in dota due to my sudden mood swing and to the players involve .
3rd is "GOOD" news !
my 2nd brother gonna stay with me. someone whom i do not wan to stay initially because staying with him my blood vessel will burst one by one. gahs ! nobody will understand this i tot of staying with my dad to avoid him and now his joining me "YAY" ! right .. fk this .
sooner or later i might just enter the world of depression geez .
love ? why do this exist . let the past be gone forget it but it keep coming back making me feel awkward . but the sweet face geez .
family ? sometime i wish i was never born ! best if i die in my sleep .
brother ? without you i feel happy but the thoughts of you coming here is killing me again i do not want to share anything with you . guess what my grandma jus buy a box of underwear and tell me share this with your bro .
for fuck sake who wan to share anything with him geez . !
ok this sucks . may the world bless me becoz i don believe in god . its a bunch of bullcrap . scold all u wan but i don gif a shit about religion .
i jus wish someone would come and talk to me now and comfort me and i hope this person is someone im thinking off all the time but its all but just a dream cheers .
thank for listening to me blog i bet ur trying to get more space for my rant .
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