hah as much as i hate to blog suddenly but i cant . my blog is like my listening ear oh well .
im happy that u do something that i had wished .
just one thing left i would be contented ...
but this 'thing' is making me frustrated .
your really in my way and ur causing my eyes to fill with hatred .
you make a turn over against me .
im lowering my head jus to control my emotions .
but deep inside me i want to let it go and all i will do to contain this feeling is torture my miserable enough blog .
hahs well yeh sometime i look from the 13th floor and wonder hw it feels to end up down there . haha .
im holding on the rope ...
im feeling miserable enough to be hurt but im just taking it in again .
im lazy to let off my anger if i had over contain it .
well simply put it as im a lazy person in everything i do even to get angry ...
its very tiring i would rather hurt myself in the inside then the people ard me .
not usual my brother came to my grandma hse to take their hari raya clothing ..
i saw my youngest brother haha . sometime i think by distancing myself from the people i love would actually cause them to miss me and me missing them .
my youngest brother as usual will come and hug me and giv me a kiss and smile .
though i noe i haf to dig out a dollar to gif it to him haha usually when we still stay under the same roof we will quarrel even jus for a dollar . but now i feel happier even if i can see them smile when they see me .
though i may not show it i yearn for someone whom can understand me
and not trash me down badly .
im human i've had enough of sadness going arnd in me .
im still containing it as usual .
perhaps whoever created me should just make me be a rubbish bin where all the unwanted things would jus end up in me .
hahs .
sometime i sit back and smile to myself
sometime i sit back and dwell on it
its pathetic i noe
but it cant be help .
i hate trashing peoples feeling .
i hate being trash back .
but most of the time i get trash back
and when i tried trashing back i will try not to make it less straightforward
i try to be more caution with my words .
maybe its jus a part of me .
i hope the people ard me whom rlly trash me would realise that .
i care of them my family my friends . even if it were to end me up dead
i will be contented .
death is eminent
the thing has been speaking to me in my head trying to get out ..
im containing it .
sometime i wish i am not what i am .
*poking the sky* i hope one day someone would be beside me comforting me and sharing our weal and woes tgt . though dying seems like a candy to me now . i may be young but i tink i cant really hold on any longer .
*smile*
i guess im going crazy haha .
well blog im done for today thanks for being here .
i created you but u last long enough to suffer for me .
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