why when im already forgetting about you . you have to appear in my dream just to hurt my heart again ? .
as this point of time i seem to be complacent to you im fine with that but stop testing me .
i woke up towards the end of my exam rlly felt torn .. nobody will understand me ... except myself .
people mess with me .. now even my dream mess with me ..
at home i wanted to haf a good rest .. people seem to be so self centered its as if im a pest . i merely need a space of my own and u disturb me as if im a cockroach of some sort ..
i got no best bud to talk too and pour this feelings out except myself .
the person i really wishes to talk too will jus think im putting on air . but oh well .
exams wise was fine ..
i dun even noe why ! did suicide jus came across my mind .. its like the stupidest thing on earth ! . but the hurt jus bring my thoughts there .
people thinks im happy all the time yea . you can think so but i wont be there to be a spoil sport .
i rlly rlly rlly wish now something good might just come and calm this feeling down . hais ..
i hate being sad all the time but is this some sort of test ? .. why me ? my family is torn and your not satisfy with it now me !? . god if you truly exist your a despicable piece of shit . no matter how hard i try to stay happy you jus dip me in the poo . and that is from the bottom of my heart . !
i rlly wish i can gif my life to someone else who needed it more then i do if only theres such a thing bahs .. well blog theres only you and me . if only your a living person .. i feel far more contented that i had rant this but oh well . ill jus make do with it . hais .
[Style No' Nizzle] Normie...
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