selfish and selfless . are two diff meaning . perhaps im both . but its all on me not anyone . perhaps i nvr noe there is people ard me that still cares . but i appreciate it . perhaps like scott say im expecting to much . the little bits nvr come to form a cookie in my life . but im still contented to a certain extend . you wont understand the shoe i am in . you got what you want . and i cant get what i want . i noe your trying to help me as a fren i appreciate it . i apologise if i tend to get cold on you . but certain things is meant to be kept as i noe who should noe and who should not . its hard being me . trust me . jokes or not i nvr meant to hurt anyone even if i claim to do so . protection by meant sacrificing myself is not to be on purpose . its suppose to see the flow . in my book nobody is to be the second me . ill forbid that . even if the world is to come to an unhappy thing id rather i get the worst hit and no one arnd me . and i noe your reading this becoz i saw your blog . my words are full of hidden meaning similar to my heart . only the real person can read the true msg im trying to potray . i noe many ppl are trying to comfort me i appreciate it . but i rlly wish that this particular person would actually talk to me . even if you do not love i don care at the very least show a lil bit of concern and im contented as of therest of my life . becoz ive come to submit to my fate that we got no chemistry .
hope the day when i jus play play with my toy and cry when im hungry would just come back to me . its seem so much simpler . but all i can do is look forward to more pain and little bit of sugar .
i wont be surprise in the near future i'd be still the same old me as of right now .
certain ppl shud understand they are like that becoz they choose too and they are not lacking of anyting unlike me . so i hope you people would stand much more firm unlike me ok .
to be truthful there is certain thing which came to me to say im cursed to not have happiness . i choose not to believe this as of till now but i might just admit to it if it really meant to be my destiny . right destiny ?
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