i guess . bahs . its jus all a wishful thinking (: . nvm bahs . i expected all this . i dunno . its painful feeling . and rlly tiring zzz . nvm . nobody will care anyway =.= .. just me and myself once again . i dun even noe why i bother helping people . why i bother wanting to see ppl smile . but just see myself in pain and sadness . hais . and lastly why am i so soft hearted ? .. i rlly nid some answer ..
at work people bully this girl . i noe shes beyond irritating like one kind . but at times we are all human being . we have feelings why must we treat each other this way ? . i don care wat people do to me . but please treat the rest like how you want people to treat you . hais .
i get a scolding from my senior for helping her doing part of her job .
her job is a runner and i do runner alot of time and its super tough . especially during busy period . why are you all so selfish ? . you all are the senior and you don have to do this underdog job whr the juniors have to do . watever i do right or wrong also get a scolding i nvr retaliate . i cant be bothered really . but i love my job no matter what . hais .
i dont noe .. people tell me be hard hearted and stuff and i really cant . no matter hw i hate a person i cant really potray my hatred . its all squish into a tiny ball and poof .
i give up sometime .. today at work get scolding yest also . hais i dunno wat i do ..
to slow wrong to fast wrong ..
either way also wrong ..
i work to actually stop feeling lonely at home and start emoing bla bla .
but work jus deepen my pain . only at times it can be nice seeing this particular person smile but yeah im nt putting my hope to high hais . well i rlly hope someting good would be in store for me . really .
every night i think and wonder . wats wrong with me dats repelling people arnd me :/ .
people break promises with me .. only to find out they have their own agenda and im left out ..
i lent people my listening ear . but i cant find one that can lent me theirs .
i dun noe ..
maybe its just meant to be ba ..
[Style No' Nizzle] Normie...
rained at 2:20 am
Well its been 2 weeks . since my feelings for you has disappear .. theres an empty hole left in my heart . waiting for it to be fill up .
i hope i can find a person whom can fill this up =) . i admit its a lil rush . but yeah
the feeling of emptiness really kills you noe .
i feel so dumb at work so aimless ! .
but yea .
perhaps this christmas someting special might wait for me ? . i dunno .
god has many way to show you .
i used not to believe in god . and believe in nth .
but somehow i receive msgs from facebook . whats god daily msg for you .
coincidentally its seem so related to my feelings for that day and it kept me strong .
well . i burn my finger like 3 days ago and its recovering (: .
i wonder . get to noe a person recently .
seems nice and funny (: .
i dunno . perhaps we can just be fren hahas or more . well its just a dreamlike world for me .
i fear falling for wrong person again .
its like the 4th time recently .
nvr once get to feel real love bahs .
but nvm . im still living right despite my rubbish past . bleh (: .
plus i love ~ ring ding dong by shinee uh ~ and bad romance by lady gaga :D nvr fail to get me in the dancing mood =x .
and recently got the urge of playing basketball . really basket ! last time i play was last year :(
well i dont noe . wish upon the shooting star . perhaps this year would end on a good note (: if not oh well heart pain is part and parcel of life bahs . all we can do is move on and chiong ba . (hope i don chiong till bang wall) =( .
hehex .
ok ~ . time to go and rest bahs .
may god bless me with someone this christmas xD .
haha ! (stop dreaming norman) .
*bish* :D .
nites ! =D>
[Style No' Nizzle] Normie...
rained at 2:08 am
