i guess . bahs . its jus all a wishful thinking (: . nvm bahs . i expected all this . i dunno . its painful feeling . and rlly tiring zzz . nvm . nobody will care anyway =.= .. just me and myself once again . i dun even noe why i bother helping people . why i bother wanting to see ppl smile . but just see myself in pain and sadness . hais . and lastly why am i so soft hearted ? .. i rlly nid some answer ..
at work people bully this girl . i noe shes beyond irritating like one kind . but at times we are all human being . we have feelings why must we treat each other this way ? . i don care wat people do to me . but please treat the rest like how you want people to treat you . hais .
i get a scolding from my senior for helping her doing part of her job .
her job is a runner and i do runner alot of time and its super tough . especially during busy period . why are you all so selfish ? . you all are the senior and you don have to do this underdog job whr the juniors have to do . watever i do right or wrong also get a scolding i nvr retaliate . i cant be bothered really . but i love my job no matter what . hais .
i dont noe .. people tell me be hard hearted and stuff and i really cant . no matter hw i hate a person i cant really potray my hatred . its all squish into a tiny ball and poof .
i give up sometime .. today at work get scolding yest also . hais i dunno wat i do ..
to slow wrong to fast wrong ..
either way also wrong ..
i work to actually stop feeling lonely at home and start emoing bla bla .
but work jus deepen my pain . only at times it can be nice seeing this particular person smile but yeah im nt putting my hope to high hais . well i rlly hope someting good would be in store for me . really .
every night i think and wonder . wats wrong with me dats repelling people arnd me :/ .
people break promises with me .. only to find out they have their own agenda and im left out ..
i lent people my listening ear . but i cant find one that can lent me theirs .
i dun noe ..
maybe its just meant to be ba ..
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