well i come to realise i only blog when my inner heart is about to be full of agony or such ... and this blog is jus like the recycle bin where i throw my feelings in and read again in future ..
basically my live is jus avg work/home basically almost everyday as if i have no life ! gosh ..
nearing to the starting of school life may seem to be getting better an such ..
as usual im envying all the couples out there hais =.= i dun even noe why isit so hard for me .. no matter how hard i try i cant lie to myself but i seem to love you still .. till now ..
though we all seem so normal and happy now i really like this feeling coz i feel treated more like a friend now .. though at times i wish i can go to you and jus express my feelings out .. but i told myself the outcome would be a total knock out :/ ..
i dunno but you seem to noe i "might" like you is jus that i denied it time and again .. i don care if you read my blog though i noe you wont .. but ya no matter how you treat me good or bad i still feel that im intoxicated by you .. i feel so stupid of this love and still it feels so forbidden .. but i cant get rid of it ..
love is indeed blind even if your knocked time and again ..
i feel so lucky when i get to sit right beside you but at the same time it feels so near yet so far .. i got so many things planned if were tgt but i noe it can nvr be put in place..
soon skool will start your new life will begin i only can look for the worst..
i noe you may find your right person and no time for the rest of us .
i noe i will bleed in agony once again if this happen but i will keep it to myself..
for else i love you way to much to even cause hurt to you except myself ..
i don mind even if your willing to hurl abuses at me im more than willing to keep quiet for everyting ..
coz this is the only thing i will do for the person i really would die for .
may i soon forget you and we remained jus as frens but it seems really hard.. coz i do not want to complicate things any further ..
3 yrs since i first lay eyes on you .. 2 yrs since we became fren .. 1 yr since we became enemy .. and now frens again .. despite this long period of time i only noe my heart is staying strong towards you .. my words may jus be spiking your feeling but it hurt me more to say it.. coz if not it be to obvious hais .
grab the star and let it slip through my finger like the wind ..
may you break my heart once again or giv me a chance to be with you even for awhile .
is the only way for me to break this painful chain .
16 ~ 17 ~ 18 now 19 .. my heart is only filled by you .
[Style No' Nizzle] Normie...
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